I feel so bad..... please no nasty comments

Ok so my husband and I have been married for almost 3 years, but 2 years back it was no sunshine, roses and a happily ever after, we had so many fights and he was verbally abusing me, I felt nothing for myself anymore very low self asteem we just lived past each other, at that time I had my own business but it wasnt doing great it was actually failing so I didnt really have money and every time we wanted to do something I had to pay half of the expenses and if I didnt have money then he would write down how much it cost then I had to pay him back the money even if it was just a cooldrink and he would humiliate me in front of friends asking wheres your money knowing that I dont have any. Ok............ then I got a job and after 3 months the was a guy that actually mind f*cked me and told me the right stuff at the right moment right attention at the right moment - for a while- and I fell into his trap and cheated on my husband, till this day it haunts me I feel so so soooo terrible for what ive done my husband didnt deserve it especially the man he is today, because we went for marriage counselling and sorted out all of our problems about 2 years ago just about after the incident, both of us changed for the better and now we have the most amazing marriage and he couldnt be a better husband and father (yes he is the father of my child). I feel so bad I cant forgive myself and I cant tell him either. Its been 2 years later and it still haunts me, I wish I didnt do what ive done.