My best friend and I got drunk one night and he sexually assaulted me... I have been trying to get past it for months but I feel like today has just been an awful day. I think about him all the time even though I try not too. I miss our friendship more than anything which pisses me off because I want to hate him. Today he posted on Instagram and all of my emotions just came flooding back. I am mostly upset that I miss him and know I’ll never talk to him again. But why do I miss someone who took advantage of me??