Soo... when I was pregnant I wanted to pump so that my baby still got breast milk even if I didn’t breastfeed. Since my bf didn’t want me to breastfeed...

So when I had her she ended up being in the nicu for a week after she was born. I couldn’t produce anything so they started formula.. she did latch but like I said my bf is against it so I don’t do it.

Well he hates that I pump too but I still do. Now I do it like 2, maybe 3 times a day cause I hate it so much but I feel like I’m failing as a mom if I don’t give her breast milk even if it’s only enough for a bottle a day. But I cried while pumping today because I hate it that much & im just stressing so much about it. I was so exhausted in the beginning that between pumping & getting up to feed her I was not sleeping....

Idk should I continue to pump? Or give up?