I’m a mom to two boys a toddler and a 5 month old and it has just been really hard. I don’t see it getting any easier. My 5 month old requires so much attention I can’t ever put him down to nap he only naps in my arms. I can’t even put him down to play because he always wants me to hold him. My toddler also wants my attention and I feel so guilty cause I can’t give it t him when he wants it. I basically have to let my toddler do what he wants and i feel like I spend no quality time with him. I feel like I’m neglecting him because the baby wants me all the time. I just feel so guilty makes me think I should have waited a bit longer to have a second. On top of all of this my husband works Monday to Saturday over 12 hours shifts so I don’t really have any help with the boys. I don’t hold it against him either because I know he works hard so I can be a stay at home mom. I would love to leave the house for a bit but I can’t do that either because my baby can’t stand the car seat the moment he is in there he’s screaming his lungs out. So I’m always stuck at home with my boys. I’m really just craving some alone time with my husband away from the kids. I have my mom in the same town but whenever the comment of a date night comes up she never offers to watch the kids she doesn’t really seem up for it. I get it she’s not obligated to but it would be so nice to get some alone time. I’m just really sad today I feel so much pressure I feel like my life only revolves around my kids I forgot what it is to be my own person. I can’t even talk about my emotions with no one else because my family would only think I’m being crazy. I don’t have any friends I can share my thoughts with either. So I thought I’d share on here I don’t want to sound like I’m being ungrateful I love my kids to death they’re my everything but sometimes I feel like I need some space...