I can’t believe how miserable I am

I guess I’m just venting here.

Not really knowing what I’m hoping to get out of this, but just hoping writing will at the very least make me feel better.

So I’m going through telogen effluvium. (Losing and shedding massive amounts of hair, like ridiculously scary)

At this point 50% of my hair is gone.

To make matters worst, last year I went through a bad bleaching job where I had to chop my hair off. So it’s short and thin and I don’t recognize myself when I see myself in the mirror.

I used to be so decent looking and now, idk the person staring back at me.

I just hit 30 and I feel like everything went downhill.

My skin is starting to have problems, my body is so odd looking after back to back pregnancies.

I feel so unattractive. So ugly. And I don’t know how to cope. 😭😭😭 I know it sounds so vain, but as women we just want to look and feel attractive and I feel like a hideous monster.

Anyways, rant over. If you’re still reading, thanks for sticking by.

Please no negativity. I feel like I already offer myself more than enough of that.