I was conditioned to believe sex is bad.

I grew up in an environment that told me that sex is bad and shameful. Now, as a 27 yr old single mom in this damn pandemic, I have never been more “in the mood” than ever before lol...

But I cant shake off the ideas of shame and that its terrible. Not planning on having sex with a random or anyone right now due to the pandemic, but is it so bad to watch porn?

Porn actually doesnt do as much for me. Masturbation doesnt either.

I have never tried sexting and that seems quite interesting and I have men I could do this with, but it seems shameful too in my mind? Plus, those men will probably view me differently.

I just dont know how to handle this release I soo badly need without feeling so bad about myself.