ADHD?

I’m 24 years old and for a few years now I’ve been wondering if I have ADHD and possibly OCD. Here’s a list of things that make me question whether I do or not:

- have difficulty concentrating. Always have done even throughout school.

- poor time management, mainly down to difficulties concentrating and being easily distracted.

- I’ve had the term I have ‘verbal diarrhoea’ thrown at me a lot. I just can’t shut up sometimes!

- have manic episodes where I just need to rearrange something because it doesn’t sit right with me inside (if that makes sense) and makes me feel all scattered. I can’t concentrate/not think about it until I’ve done it and it’s the way I wanted/imagined it to be. This can be a pain in relationships for me. If I allow someone to for example do the dishes for me and they’re not the way I usually would do it I’d freak me out. Sometimes I would even get a little angry about it. My current partner is very understanding and I do usually take it upon myself to do these things myself instead so that I wouldn’t get the stress of it not being done the way I like.

- get brain fog an awful lot.

- I have to check the door either 3 times or in a certain pattern before I believe it is actually locked. I have to check every switch before leaving the house and go ‘off, off, off’ while looking at it/checking that it is off. If I don’t do all these things I think something bad will happen. This has irritated a lot of partners in the past. If someone interrupts me while I’m doing it I have to start all over again.

That’s just a few. It does get very hard to deal with sometimes. The anxiety I get about it all and the horrible feelings inside. I feel like such a bad person when I get mad at someone for something not being the way I want and I don’t mean to get annoyed but it’s almost like I don’t even think before I say something because it over powers my mind and I can’t think straight until that thing I’m stressed about is fixed/the way I need it to be.

I know I should go to the doctors to get some answers and a proper diagnosis but at the moment I have more important health issues relating to trying to conceive to worry about!