Gender disappointment - please help!

Hi Ladies,

I have a daughter and am 15 weeks tomorrow. I don’t know the sex of my baby at the moment.

I go between wanting another girl - as I’d love my daughter to have a sister - I mean sisters are the best!!

But then sometimes I’d like a boy because it will be nice to have one of each.

This is our last baby and either way I’ll be happy and a little sad (either sad my baby won’t have a sister or sad that I’ll not ever experience being a boy mum too).

My daughter is the only grandchild on my side - I feel it’s unlikely my sister will have children.

And my in laws have 3 granddaughters.

I know both sets of parents would like a grandson - they’ve said so in round about ways.

Although I know and ultimately we all know I have no control over the matter I can’t help but sometimes feeling overwhelmed with pressure.

My husbands 2 sisters have a daughter each but I know my in laws would love a boy to “continue the family name”.

I do want to find out the sex at 16 weeks via a private scan because I’m so intrigued into who will be the final member of our family.

I’m also filled with fear that the sex of my baby will bring disappointment. I’m scared I’ll be letting people down. I have no doubt that when the baby comes - what ever sex they will be loved wholeheartedly by all the family but I’m so worried about having gender disappointment during the rest of my pregnancy. I had post natal depression last time and have been told I’m at a higher risk of getting it again. I also have seen online that gender disappointment does have a link to depression pre and postnatal.

Does anyone have any thoughts, advice, or is anyone else feeling like this?