Pregnant with #2, feeling so many things

We’ve been trying for 4 cycles. I was so tired for the past few days, thought it was just lack of sleep. Then I woke up with a sore throat and feeling like the flu. I figured my period is in 3 days, maybe wait. Then I caved and I checked a test.

I’m 39. My AMH was a little low. I work a crazy stressful job. I just was convinced it wouldn’t happen for me.

Now I have all these crazy emotions as I sit here in the middle of the night. Is my son going to resent me? Or will he be happy to have a sibling (particularly when he’s older and we are gone)? Did I mess up his life? (Yes I’m seeing how irrational I sound here). I was not a kid person before my son but I’m completely nuts about him. Will it be the same with a second? We had a good thing going so far. Did we make a mistake? Will the baby be ok?

Then dumb stuff like- how will we fit in our house? Just had the last renovation done and now suddenly we will probably outgrow it.

Ugh, brain...please shut off.