Trigger Warning ... I need advice

Ladies I need some advice.

I was with my ex for 5 years. We recently broke up. Our 3rd year together, I had an ab*rtion. We were both young, didn’t live together and weren’t financially stable. We both agreed it was the best decision for us.

I will admit, there were times I regretted it or had major anxiety over it. But overall I think it was the best decision. We never told anyone about it. I didn’t want my family or his family to know. It was just between him and I.

He broke up with me last month and we have texted. If we get into an argument he will bring up the ab*rtion. He uses it against me to hurt my feelings. He threatens to tell our families about it. He started dating another girl and I got a little jealous and said something about her and he said “Do you know what she never had? An ab*rtion”.

I was shattered when he said that.

He knows that experience traumatized me. That I regret it sometimes. That I have to live with this secret for the rest of my life and he uses it against me as a weapon!!

Will someone give me some advice ??? 😞

By the way, we are both in our late 20s.