Occasional anxiety/pressure with parenting?

Hi all — I do have mild anxiety and am receiving help for that. Most of my anxiety is surrounding my son’s development (he may have a genetic disorder that doesn’t fully present until later in childhood so we are in the waiting game) and he is also still not talking but does babble endlessly (we have him in early intervention services for this).

I go for periods (several weeks) where I am not anxious about either one of these things and then will suddenly become anxious about something minor, like him using cutlery, or needing to learn how to scribble etc (lots of times it is from receiving one of those ages and stages questionnaires that sets it off). I then feel so much pressure to make sure I’m doing everything possible to help him achieve x y and z developmental goal and it doesn’t feel good.

Then I talk myself down and remind myself I do everything I can for him. I love him so much and really try my best. I get tired at times, like I’m sure we all do, but I never stop trying my best. Sometimes I need to remember that his development is not a reflection of my love or my effort. I know this but sometimes I still feel the pressure. I appreciate being able to put my thoughts to words on this platform. I wonder if anyone else feels the same? Thanks for reading xo