my husband and i wanted to have a birthing center birth because at the time the virus was super rampant in our area, and the fact that you have to let the nurses take your baby away from your room in the hospital bothered me...

my midwife is sooo hands off and her attitude is off putting. if you raise any concern or challenge her on what you would like to do her tone changes. she keeps saying, nothing you do will bring baby faster , it’s all hormones so all the things i was doing like walking, red raspberry leaf tea, dates, evening primrose wasn’t going to bring him. she keeps bringing up her experiences because she’s given birth 5x (so what my mother in law has given birth 7x). if i’m having pain, she says go see a chiropractor. none of that is helping me mentally. we had a meeting when i was 38 weeks, about how to and when to contact her in labor, signs of labor, pain management (none) etc . what if i would have went into labor before, then what? she was irritated that my job std/fmla manager kept calling her for paperwork to be sent. am i just being too picky or are her actions are questionable? i want to give birth at home and call 911 when it’s over at this point.

now i’m 40w + 4 and i just want this experience to be over 😭.