So about 5/6 years ago I fell pregnant, my husband and I were in a really bad place due to a stressful financial situation and couldn’t see a way out at the time, we took the decision to terminate the pregnancy as we didn’t want to bring a child into an already stressful life at the time. It was not a quick decision and took a lot of talking and figuring out.

After sorting out our debt and turning our life around we have now been trying for 2 years with no luck. After fertility tests it turns out my husband has low sperm count azoospermia?!

There is not a day that goes by that I don’t regret the decision we made to terminate that pregnancy. I feel like this is our punishment for doing something so awful.

Does anyone know if azoospermia is something that happens over time? Was we just super lucky the time we fell pregnant and that was an absolute fluke that won’t happen again?

We were not even trying and was using condoms albeit it not every single time when we fell a few years back, and now I’m <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">tracking ovulation</a> religiously and doing everything someone ttc can do and it’s just not happening.

It’s eating me up everyday