Any tips on giving birth alone?

My husband needs to watch our older kids since we are in full lockdown. He does not want my mom to come to watch the kids since his can’t come and see the baby 🙄 (don’t really like her). So I decided I will go alone this time. I have no idea what to expect in terms of carrying all the stuff and how I will be able to do things after birth. I have a high risk pregnancy and have a chance of bleeding out after birth so kinda nervous. Any tips? Have you considered going alone? This is new info to me as we have agreed on a plan since December and now I am pissed and hurt btw. Just feel like I have to care about others’ feelings instead of focusing what’s best for me and my baby/kids.

Edit to add:

Just to clear it out: I did NOT say to his mom don’t come. We have a stay at home order and ppl get tickets and fines for going into other peoples’ homes. I don’t know why anyone would think I choose to do this after all I have been through.

I have iugr, mci, 2 hematomas and possible accreta. I can literally bleed out after birth and die if my placenta does not come out or if it’s ripped out. My mom has been taking me to my appointments watching my kids. His mom and I are not close (don’t like her but never said she can’t come over). I am just pissed at how I have to care about in laws feelings when I am literally the one giving birth. I was told I will lose my baby at 19 weeks and there on it’s just a shitty pregnancy.

I don’t need negative comments ppl jumping to conclusion telling me “have fun doing it alone”. Don’t need people’s insensitive comments, I need an advice how to do it alone in terms of carrying stuff around. I don’t need to hear how I can die when I literally know it and have known it for 20 weeks now. It’s not my choice and don’t need rude comments.