Kinda erked

Angie
So i had one depo shot in april. Never went back to get another bcuz me and my SO decided we wanted to have a baby.. Boom so sept i spotted for 11 days.. Doc said my period shod be regulating.. Had a full period of 5 days at the end of sept.. Mid oct i got a faint positive then was bleeding for 2 days went to the ER and they said i wasnt preg..no sign that i had been recently. I was crushed.. We were so excited I had jus accepted the day before that i was preg.. Cuz somethin felt off.. Anyway.. Still been tryin.. I was due for my period today and it hasnt came on yet.. Idk i dont feel preg tho.. I dont even wanna take a test and be disappointed..my baby boy is 5 and im kinda scared i cant get preg anymore.. I was on the mirena for 3 years.. June 10 to oct 13