Not feeling myself lately. I have no intention of hurting myself or baby. I just feel so numb, this morning I told my husband to get away from me all because he didn’t pass me my haaka right away. He ended up walking away from me and left to work even though it was 40 min early, now I can’t stop crying and I think my baby feels it too because he hasnt taken a nap all day which is making me more frustrated. I feel like I’m not here and I’m just doing things because i have too. I don’t find joy in my baby i really wish I would because we waited so long to have him here. I haven’t eaten all day and I’m not even hungry When normally I’d be starving as soon as I wake up. I hope this feeling is temporary because I want to enjoy these early weeks with my baby and not push my husband away because I love him so much and he does everything for us. I don’t know why I’ve been so mean to him lately I regret it instantly afterwards and I try to stop myself but it’s just my emotions take over me 😞