I typically don’t post on this group but I figured why not see if anyone else has struggled with this before.

I’ve been through a lot the past few years. Battle after battle. I haven’t had a single break from it. One battles comes and goes and then another one comes again. The things I’ve struggled with have been PPD, marriage issues (unfaithful partner), family crisis, suicide, more family crisis, heartbreak, losing my relationship with my sister, overcoming childhood trauma and PTSD from it.. the list goes on and I’ve gone through all of that in the past 4 years.

It’s all made me feel so spiritually broken and exhausted. I know God is suppose to be source of strength but I feel so weak that I don’t have the strength to move anymore. My trust in Him has been tested because my trust has been broken with family crisis issues and an unfaithful partner, because of that, I struggle with trusting God again. Even though I know it’s not his fault. I’m not blaming God, but I don’t know how to repair the damage, the hurt, and brokenness I feel from all the battles I’ve endured. I still pray and read daily when I can, but even in my prayers I feel weak and alone. Maybe I just need to spiritually rest from everything, if that makes sense. God rested on the seventh day, so that’s where I got that. But I honestly don’t know what to do anymore but be still, I guess. I feel like a failure for being weak and weary. I would like to have my trust and faith in God to be restored but the battle in my mind is very hard to overcome.

Prayers and advice welcome.