how to have self love

i’ve hated the way i looked since i was 10/11 now i’m 21 and i still hate myself

i seek male validation constantly and i don’t want to anymore i’ve slept with over a hundred men and still don’t feel anything

i have a 8 month old so i hate my body even more now. but when i’m sad i eat and i can’t stop.

i don’t have friends or hobbies so yeah

i just want to be happy i want to enjoy my life

idk what to do