Hello ladies, I am here today exposing my story because I really don’t feel comfortable looking to anyone in my close circle.. I just don’t want anyone to worry but I do need to just get it out there and maybe get a piece of advice. I have been telling my husband everything the doctor has said but I feel he doesn’t understand my anxiety..

I had never had a Pap done before until after I started messing around with my husband.. boyfriend at the time.. I lost my virginity to him so I know if HPV is a thing you pass around I got it from him.. the day I went back to get the results of my Pap was also the day I found out I was pregnant.. so my doctor referred me to an Ob-Gyn who decided that we will worry about the pregnancy and one the baby is out we will treat your HPV.. this was back in 2016.. after my son was born I had another Pap and I believe this one was normal.. the doctor said it was probably the pregnancy that caused the previous one to be abnormal..

Two years ago I went in for a physical with kaiser and the doctor did a Pap and it came back positive for HPV, I was referred to another Ob-Gyn and she said we had to do a colposcopy/biopsy.. during the process she said there was a spot that looked a little off.. she took some tissue from there and some “normal” tissue for comparison.. I had that done and just last week I had a call from her and I don’t remember her exact words but she basically said I had a grade two case of HPV on that little spot.. so now I have to go in and get a Loop Electrosurgical Excision Procedure (LEEP).. she said it is not a big deal and that should get rid of my HPV.. but I can’t help to think worse case scenarios.. what if it comes back?? what if I get cancer?? can I have another child while Im waiting to die?? if I need to have anything removed because of cancer will my husband still want to be with me?? I’m sorry I just needed to get all this off my chest..