i have no safe space in my own home(vent ig)

i’m 37wks pregnant and my partner just bought our first house. it’s a 4 bedroom place so we have our shared bedroom, the baby’s room, his own office, and then i have my own room that i share with our cats.

my partner makes a big deal out of him cleaning ANYTHING. literally anything. i’m disabled and i haven’t been able to do a lot because i’m in so much pain. it hurts to do simple tasks and even just to get up to go to the bathroom is miserable.

anyways, this morning we had a good morning together, we snuggled and laughed, eventually got up and i was making breakfast while he was suppose to clean the cat litter box that’s in my room. he was already making a big deal about it (even though we both agreed it’d be his chore while i’m pregnant) and was huffing and puffing because he also had to sweep up the litter the cats fling around. i went to throw something in the trash when i saw some of my stuff in there and i grabbed it out and said “what are you doing ??” and he said that because i can’t keep my room “clean” he’s throwing my stuff out and wants to “take my room away”. keep in mind we just moved in, my room isn’t dirty i just don’t have any storage because WE JUST MOVED IN, i haven’t had the time or money to buy cabinets or shelves, let alone the energy to build them myself (because he’s not handy at all, like at 9months pregnant i had to teach him how to hang blinds and i put together most/all of our furniture with little to no help).. and all my stuff is neatly up against the walls, not thrown around or anything. also if anything his room is dirtier than mine because his shit is all over the floor and because i can’t move around like i use to, nothing has been wiped down in there in well over a month.

i tell him to get out and that i’ll clean the litter and stuff, i just wanted him out. and he said “oh wow, you’re actually going to clean something for once.” so then ofc i’m crying because hormones and he’s just so mean to me all the time. i don’t even know why he says shit like that because all i do is clean up the house, i just haven’t done anything besides the dishes, vacuum, tidy up the kitchen, clean the living room, and cook dinner(and sometimes his lunch) because i’m in so much pain but he acts like i do nothing and like he does everything. he’s also on leave right now so it’s not like he has to go to work.

so whatever he finally leaves the room and i just start crying even more because he knocked over my stack of books and he came in making a big deal that he had to finish making breakfast and when i said i wasn’t hungry and i wanted to be left alone he said “now you’re wasting food, you wasted all the eggs because you don’t want to eat” which it’s not like he should care because i’m the one that pays for groceries.

i finally finished picking up my room, cleaning the litter, and sweeping and he opened the door to grab this tiny vacuum that he NEVER uses, rolled his eyes at me and made some stupid comment.. like wtf, i just left the room and looked for someplace else to be sad and realized i don’t have anywhere he wouldn’t bother me..