Cycle Buddy?

Hello I'm new here,

I'm 32,

I have 4 beautiful children and were wanting just 1 more.

I had my 1st miscarriage last year on Sep 4th.

I'm on my 5th cycle trying to conceive,

I'm currently 4 days into af,

I usually have af for 8 days,

My cycle is usually 31 days + or -

All of my kids were born via c-section.

I guess I just really want my rainbow baby and I don't really know how to feel because it's never been so hard for me to get pregnant and since my miscarriage, I just feel like my body is useless and I'm running out of time.