Stressed

I am so stressed out. My husband lost his job to COVID and it has been stressful. He hasn’t been able to find appropriate employment yet. His employer asked him to go back to work for them and he completed everything necessary to do so but unfortunately they fell on hard times again and had to rescind their offer.

At the beginning of this month he freaked out on me because he was sick of being broke. Told me that our relationship wasn’t benefitting him and he can do bad on his own.

He was giving his unemployment checks to me so that I can handle paying the bills. I make okay money but not enough to pay everything on my own. Well he had somewhat of a breakdown about being broke and not having any money. He went from making more than what I make in my biweekly check in one of his work weeks to barely making anything and it has had a major impact on him. He accused me of living a double life because we didn’t have any extra cash after all of the bills were paid. He told me he wanted to see all of the bills and where his money was going from now on. I pulled up my bank account to show him that everything was going to bills but he refused to look at it. He hasn’t given me any money since then and I’m stressed and struggling to find out how I’m going to pay these bills, get groceries, get gas and any little extra thing necessary. In his head he is going to give me half the mortgage and then it’s basically fuck me for any other bills we have because he wants to be able to have money in his account and save. Well why do you get to save while I get to stress and cry about how these things will be paid?

I just needed to vent a little. Don’t mind me.

Edit... I did see the “why don’t you find a job to support him” comment even though it was deleted. I have a full time job making $20/hr but it is not enough to support the lifestyle he was used to having and wants again. I’ve also said I was going to get a second job and he told me no.

$1300 mortgage, gas&electricity is anywhere from $120-$180/month, my car payment and car insurance are $415/month, water bill, gas for my vehicle around $120/month, groceries (which the cost keeps increasing), cell phones $250/month, then other bills that I’m not going to breakdown here. It all adds up and money disappears quick.