AF due 12/9 - I'm going crazy

Rose
So we've been TTC for a bit over 12 months now; I swear every month for the last several months I trick myself into having 'pregnancy symptoms'... Like I'll get a migraine, or my breasts feel/get super tender, or I feel cramping in my abdomen. I don't know if all of these are all regular signs of AF, and have always had them, but lately I've been dreaming big time of a BFP, and it's driving me nuts. I know I shouldn't expect it every month - because when AF arrives I get so sad, but I don't know what to do?!  😩😔