I just got married a month ago

My husband struggled with porn ever since he was 14, he was first exposed to it since he was 6

It was a big addiction that attacked his selfesteem and caused depression

He started doing way better since he met me, and the times he would fail started to be less and less often

He always recognizes his mistakes and His need for Gods help. He wants nothing but for porn to disappear from his life completely and is fighting for it

Now that we are married and having sex, i feel that his past addiction is taking a toll on our sexual intimacy

It took time to understand, but i felt like he wasnt as much into sex as i was, and he wasnt as turned on as when things would get heated when dating

I know there is nothing wrong with me, i just feel his ability to desire me has been robbed by porn

It was usually me trying to initiate and sometimes i even got rejected during our honeymoon

He acknowledges that there is something going on but i think he doesnt say much bc he doesnt want to hurt my feelings

Its been a month and it doesnt feel like we are making sex work, we always struggle to find the right position and i feel like he is not so into it bc he doesnt look at my body much

He loves me and he wants to make this work too

I just got to the point where i dont know what to do and i feel so sad and hopelessness comes telling me our sex life will always be like this