Up until last night, I only had one sex partner. I was with my first for over 3 years and we separated 2 months ago because our goals didn’t align and it caused toxicity/mental abuse amongst the both of us (he didn’t want to get a job or finish school—he’s 20 years old and refuses to get his GED or a job).

My long time male best friend of 5+ years has loved me since he’s met me, and we once had a thing before my first. We reconnected, I caught feelings for him very, very fast. He treats me so differently than my first (my first didn’t want to spend time with me, only wanted to play video games, and didn’t cater to my mental or physical health needs. He always told me to solve my problems on my own because they were “personal problems”).

I didn’t intend on having sex with someone else so fast, but I hadn’t had sex since March of 2020. As for a lot of women, I wanted to wait until the “right time”.

The music was on, lights dim, he kissed and caressed me, called me beautiful and he loves me. Made sure I was truly comfortable. Completely selfless and we were vulnerable to each other. With my first, I was nervous before every single time we had sex. My new boyfriend/partner didn’t evoke nervousness in me. It just felt right. It was pure and wholesome.

His skill and our feelings for each other made my legs tremble, and I couldn’t speak properly other than the few times I said “I love you”, “fuuuuccckkk”, and my soft moans😅

He held me afterwards, cared for me and my jello legs, and we showered together.

I didn’t get to wear lingerie or shave my legs right beforehand, but some things that happen outside of the plan are the best things to happen (yes, he’s that good).

So girls and women, don’t feel ashamed for having sex with another partner soon after a toxic relationship ends. You deserve someone who treats you right and prioritizes your needs.