Trying to do caregiving work and being pregnant hasn’t been easy. I’m struggling with completing mundane tasks like serving meals, making beds, assisting residents with walking, and taking out the trash. I had slightly gotten the hang of memory care because it had fewer residents and due to their memory deficits they subsequently had less demands.

Today was a bad day. We were short a caregiver and I had a late start. I felt I should’ve taken charge more having worked the day before in assisted living. But I still took it easy and felt sorta lost without direction. Breakfast was served slow because the other caregiver hadn’t worked morning shift that often and didn’t know what to do. This caused complaints from the residents and I was drowning.

Why can’t I do simple things like remember to get the table cloths from the washer, check on residents who need help, wash people in a timely manner? I always do things half assed and it never comes together. I hate the I’m new excuse because one day I won’t be and I won’t have any more excuses.