Exactly 6 weeks now and you just left me like that. When I knew I pregnant 2 weeks ago, my happiness and excitement was all over the place, thinking how can I start creating a nursery room, and everything.. I've been waited this moment for 5+ years, and when you came in I know to myself that I can't trade that moment to anything else. Till the moment I started bleeding and really got scared that my rainbow baby will not be able to stick inside of me. I am really so devastated, upset, mad at myself and I just flooded myself with tons of questions and what ifs... I know God has His reason, whatever that is I trust Him that all will gets better and I will be healed from this painful feeling. Its an emotional roller coaster feelings for me and I hope I will have the courgae to be on a positive side and recover from this soon😭😢😔