I would have given up my whole world for him

11 years of marriage down the drain. I'm so broken. I never saw this coming, my best friend, partner, love of my life, my absolutely everything decided to cheat with a coworker and is now in a relationship with her.

the burning pain I feel in my heart is the worst feeling I have ever felt, I wish I could hate him, but the truth is I'm still very much in love with this man despite what he did. I wish he loved me the way I loved him, my whole marriage was always so amazing we treated each other so well, I would have given the world for him. I always treated him like a king, he was always my priority, we never argued we got along so great, I wanted to be the mother of his children, he was my absolute best friend. it hurts so bad that a more attractive younger woman came along and took him away. what this has done to my confidence is so unreal, I couldn't compete with someone like her, shes absolutely stunning and has her whole life set, I met her once before at Christmas Party and even I thought to myself wow shes a great catch, I can't blame him for falling for her but I just wish he would have chose me, his wife, instead. it's been 10 months and I still think about him all day and night, I think about what he's doing, if he's ate, if he's sleeping well, things I shouldn't be even be worried about but yet it wonders my mind and it eats me inside.

I know he's happy in his new relationship and I wish him the best. I know time heals all wounds, and I do try and keep busy, I have friends that also try and distract me( he's still constantly on my mind though) I dont want to meet anyone new beacsue I feel like I would be lying about my feelings for my ex husband I still very much love him and feel like I always will. I know i sound crazy and probably will get a ton of negative comments.

any ladies out there than can shed some positive stories about moving on from a broken heart? how long did it take you? would love to hear them.

** Thank you sooo much for everyone's kind words🙏, I really thought I was going to get beat down and that was not the case at all. please continue to pray for me.