😭 my period came yet i so badly wanted a baby

So after getting over the shock of my husband suddenly started to pull out yet we had discussed for more than a year that we shall ttc when our first is 2 years, i started secretly hoping that i got pregnant.

Honestly this stressed us so much that we just stopped having sex for like 10 days. N then we finally did, after which my period came like the sex was a trigger... anyway. I am sad and i don't know how to get over how he led me on to think we were on the same page only to deprive me of a child he knows i so badly wanted. We tried to talk about it and he apologises but now i know i wont have another opportunity to get pregnant again as he leaves for work before my next ovulation and God knows when we will meet again.

This is going to be so hard. I thought i had gotten over him doing this to me but now that my period is here, i feel sad and mad at him. I hope our marriage can survive these next months before we finally meet again. He led me on!!! At least if he had been honest and told me he wasnt ready, i wouldn't have prepared so much for this baby.

A part of me is still hoping this is implantation bleeding but i can almost be sure it aint.