TTC WITH STAGE 4 ENDO NATURALLY/ WEIGHT LOAA JOURNEY

Hi,

I am 37 and diagnosed with stage 4 endo (at age of 26). I have visited docs to look I to options but decided a few years ago we would wait on the Lord and see if we can conceive naturally. We have been trying for 7 years. We got pregnant naturally n and only once in 2014 but sadly I lost my twins. It was a horrific experience as it was a heterotopic pregnancy. Super high risk. I went deep into depression although I trusted the Lord and He got me through it. I gained over 80lbs ans just let myself go. Since April I have been trying to be better. I decided to really let it be I. GOD'S hands. It is hard. Time flies and I will be 38 soon and my hubby 41 and my heart breaks. I am asking for prayers and also tips on how to stay healthy. I hired a personal trainer to help me eat better and work out. I love it. I take out my feelings out in the gym. I am really trying to drop all thi weight in hopes of 1) be healthy 2) feel good, and 3) have a child. Eating healthy is so hard for me. I love hot cheetos, chocolate and Mexican food...well all food. Lol. It has been my self medication (aka poison of choice). I am down 10 lbs so far. Please pray and share any wisdom you can. Thanks 😊