Just wanting to get this out and in the open.

What really sucks is having a super strong motherly instinct, or like a call to be a mother, and just not being able to conceive. You watch friends and family announce their pregnancy, births, and may even be involved in their children's lives. And the whole time you are aching inside. Every part of you is screaming that it should be YOU. And you feel alone. Scared to talk about it anymore because you don't want to rain on the joy your family and friend's are experiencing with their babies. You have doctor visit after doctor visit. Getting labs done, getting different medications, exploratory surgery. And you rejoice in the small victory of learning that it wasn't all in your head and it isn't TOO serious... but then you feel the realization of "it's gonna be a battle" creep into your mind. And you try to remain hopeful. But you just want someone to talk about it with. Someone who will listen and not throw in generic responses. Someone to pull you out of the funk.