don't feel "used" fo my bf after a year

this is an odd position to be in. the title says most of it, but basically even after a year of dating, i don't feel "used" to my partner. my boyfriend's name doesn't roll easily off my tongue, cuddling/intimacy feels awkward a lot of the time, and when i see him from across a room full of people my first thought isn't "that's my person".

all that aside, i love him very much and as a couple we have all the building blocks for a strong and healthy foundation. we communicate clearly, are thoughtful and tender and supportive of each other... we have fun and make each other laugh. it's all there, except the familiarity that i've felt with other partners by this point in the relationship, the kind that separates it from just a regular friendship.

at the beginning of our relationship i wasn't physically attracted to him at all and really didn't like kissing. somewhere down the line that changed as we grew closer, and now we have a healthy sex life. i'm satisfied but not that excited. i don't even know why i'm writing this. i feel like an awful or shallow person for feeling this way. he has done nothing to turn me off, and i could see myself marrying him someday, but part of me feels like i'm settling for a comfortable love that's not entirely fulfilling and right for me.

has anyone else felt this way? did it pass? i've been feeling it for the entirety of our year long relationship in varying degrees but lately it's gotten incredibly hard to ignore... he's going back to his hometown in a few days and will be there through to the end of this month and i'm actually looking forward to it :-( it feels like we're just friends who kiss