I gave birth to my son 5/21/21. He was having latching issues at birth. So I pumped out my colostrum and fed him with a syringe. The hospital said I had to introduce formula feeding because he needed to be “ hydrated “.

I never ever wanted to formula feed, as a first time mother, breastfeeding was always my goal.

We came home 3 days later, after a 48 hour labor and delivery. We used formula until I started to produce milk on day 4 post partum after pumping since I gave birth, I was so happy to see that milk supply.

I kept Trying to have him latch, but since he was having trouble, I had to pump and feed plus formula since I still wasn’t producing the amount he needed.

Fast forward 3 weeks later, he’s latching much better as I was still pumping and giving formula too since He was still Hungry even after feedings!

Some Feeds are 7-10 minutes, some are 25 minutes as he falls asleep. I watched videos and asked friends and family. My lactation consultant wasn’t as good, she barely taught anything about feeding or positions as a new mother.

I cried so much with days as he wasn’t latching, getting frustrated and irritated. But thankfully now he’s doing much better. I stopped pumping every 3-4 hours 3 days ago as he started feeding better on my breasts, but I realized when I do pump my supply decreases dramatically!

I was so concerned but called the hospital and she told me my body is making what my son needs.

Today I officially decided I will wean off the formula and bottle and I am proud of myself. It may take some Time and patience, but I have to accomplish the goal of wanting to only breastfeed because that’s what I choose.

Postpartum depression is silly, messes up your emotions and increases your sensitivity.

I didn’t know it’s going to be this hard, when I cry I feel good, but they say don’t be stressed because it affects your milk supply but it’s so hard because you aren’t in control.

Good job to all the mama out there, this is worth it but didn’t realize the amount of power and patience god has embedded in our hearts as women.