💔 feeling out.

10 dpo, BFN today. This is only our third cycle trying. Past few months this is when I stop testing and wait for AF, who without fail shows right on time every damn time. I don’t know whether to be thankful for the regularity and another shot at making a baby, or to be pissed it came at all. Today though, I got this negative by myself before my husband is home from work, and I’m so heartbroken. We want this so bad, waited so long just to try so hard and still, nothing. 😞 I’m angry, upset... disappointed in my body. I’ve tracked every cycle since stopping bc just to confirm ovulation. I want to stop but also feel like I’ll be worse if I don’t know for sure if I’ve ovulated or not.

Just feeling so down & discouraged. Why do humans suck so much at reproduction? I want to fast forward my entire life until I finally find out I’m pregnant, but I’m also starting to feel like I will never get there! 😞 praying for everyone in the same boat, especially those who have been trying for a long time. This is really starting to get to me.