Feel so alone with my TTC journey sometimes. Would be nice to find some other women that can relate to my story and offer advice/support to one another! So many friends around me have been lucky with getting pregnant quickly, I am the only one who is having issues.

We’ve been TTC for a year and 7 months, have unfortunately suffered 5 early losses. Furthest I’ve managed to get is 6 weeks. I found out in November after having countless amounts of tests done (still more to come) that I have an underactive thyroid. I’ve been on Levothyroxine since November, however still haven’t been able to get my levels right. Doctors/hospital believe this is the cause for my recurrent miscarriages however I’m not to sure that it is the only cause… I’m currently having to take 25mcg one day and 50mcg the next. I feel like my body has no idea what’s going on! I had further testing done after having a couple of antibodies tests come back high. There was some questioning regarding my results for anaemia and something to do with my immune system however I was told it was nothing to be too concerned about as the levels weren’t that concerning and they believed none of this had a part to play in my miscarriages. Therefore I was discharged…

I recently had another early loss a month ago. This one absolutely broke me as it took us since August last year to finally get another positive test. I tracked everything and was starting to get so disheartened when nothing was happening, I was over the moon to finally get a positive test again. But sadly it was quickly taken away from us again💔 I phoned the doctors and asked what to do next. This is when she told me my thyroid levels were still not correct and made the adjustment with my medication. She also referred me back to the gynaecologist. With COVID everything is still getting pushed back here in the UK and it looks like I’ll be waiting weeks, even months to finally get my hospital appointment with the gynaecologist. We’ve started discussing going private to help speed things up.

Currently on CD34. AF was supposed to arrive today but she’s still a no show. Didn’t track anything this month or BD much so know she’ll be making her way soon… going to start tracking again next cycle. Also going to try my best to exercise and eat more healthy. I’m vegetarian but a fussy eater so I am bad with eating junk sometimes. I was doing good with making sure I took multivitamins or preconception pills but recently that started dropping so want to get back on all of that again to get my body more prepared. My mindset hasn’t been great either, I’ve found myself getting into a dark place with it all and losing myself so want to make sure I take some quality time for me. I want to get into yoga or meditation to relax my mind.

I really hope we won’t have to wait much longer for our rainbow and I hope anyone who is in the same or similar position as me doesn’t have to wait much longer too🤍🌈