Staying at home suck as a mom 24/7:(

I can't deal with this anymore all I do is cook clean and run after kids all day and top of that I have bad anexity and panic attacks .....all he does is work and goes on the road working for 1 week and when he leaves now I don't care anymore Idk what to do anymore I lost myself I don't even go out anymore I can't have free time I can't do nothing with them my kids are out of control always crying wanting everything or being bad I try all day to be a good mom but I can't anymore idk what to do