not much left to say….

i’m exhausted and mentally so far removed from life. i’m 7 months pregnant and at this point i’ve decided to end my life after i give birth in a couple months.

before i go i just want to share a few hugs and kisses with my baby.

it’s strange how depression works. you can go from loving and enjoying every single moment of pregnancy and the joy of motherhood to feeling like you are absolutely nothing.

i love my baby so believe me when i say the battle between life and death has been a difficult one and i never thought things would get like this for me mentally during my pregnancy.

i’m afraid to be vulnerable with anyone about me or my mental health again so i’ve decided to keep my family,friends and the father uninformed.

just needed to get this off my chest.

moms and dads take care of yourselves!