My husband says he wants to get back together

I want to thank you ladies for being with me through this. I didn't know how much support I would get on here as a guy but I'm really happy I used thus when tracking my surrogates pregnancy. Small recap, husband who I've been with for 14 years left me because he was bored and had spent the last 2 years of out marriage cheating on me with someone barely legal. We have 2 girls together. When I signed the divorce papers I begged one more time for him to stay and he called me pathetic. Memorial day weekend I went down to where he proposed to me. At a lake. He got me a 10k ring that had diamonds different colors to make the pride flag... I through it in the water... It felt closure.

There was a guy who's number I got at pride with my girls. I decided I deserved some affection. So I called him up while the girls were with my ex husband. We tried having sex but I thought about how my ex husband was my first everything and started crying. He comforted mr and said we could cuddle instead. Next morning my ex brought the girls home early. He just walked into my house because he has the key (need to change the lock). My daughter busted in the room. We did have our clothes on. When my ex saw the guy I had a failed hook up with he asked who this was and my ex had the nerve to tell this guy "I'm his husband". I corrected and said soon to be ex husband. This guy knows I'm getting divorced so he kisses me on the cheek and says I'll call you. Then winks at me when my ex isn't looking. My ex was so pissed and told me I shouldn't be in a relationship with someone I barely knew. So jealous. I told him to mind his business and got the baby. Me and that guy actually texted and he said "Hope I made him really jealous😉". We laughed... Then last night my ex sent me a long text about how he was wrong and doesn't want a divorce and wants our family back together. That he's sorry he cheated and all this stuff. He also said it would be selfish to make our daughters switch between homes... Hes obviously only saying this because he saw me with another guy... But... I guess in the back of my head I'm thinking "What if he means it" "What if we can save these 14 years" "What if he stills loves me". I'm so stupid thinking this shit... But I can't help but ask what if.

Thx for talking sense into me. I sent him a text saying that he hurt me and I can't trust him not to do that anymore and I just want a happy coparenting relationship. He replied with "No you just wanna be a fuck boy and get some dick". Fuck boy? Are we in High school. He needs to stop fucking around with barely legals😒. Also it's noon and I'm stressed and want some 🍷. Tell me its okay😂😂😂