Hi just need to vent.

So this past month - month in a half I haven’t felt like myself I feeel like I’ve lost myself I have really bad social anxiety to the point where I’ll ask my coworkers to cover my shifts, and I’ll start crying out of no where. Well not at work I do catch my self wanting to freaking cry. I tried to explain to my husband but I feel like he doesn’t understand. I told him I wanted to see a therapist and he doesn’t understand why. Like I can’t wait to go home or drive home and just cryyyy!! To the point where I quit my job to focus more on myself, I recently started the gym and notice it’s my way to be at peace it’s my therapy I want and try to go everyday but my husband then says he doesn’t feel good then I look bad for going. Or takes forever to get ready, but when ever he goes to the gym he’s up and in the car in 0.2 seconds. Then I feel like my feels aren’t taken seriously ? Idkkk