Indifferent pregnancy.

I am pregnant with my second child. Even though I took out my IUD I am still in shock, I did not expect to be pregnant this soon. I am indifferent about this pregnancy because before I had my son, I miscarried and had a blight ovum. I'm not sure on the odds of me miscarrying again but if I did, I would grieve and be sad. At the same time, I wouldn't try and get pregnant again. I would just see it as a horrible loss and move on. I wouldn't want to be pregnant again and go through another miscarriage. I'm in my 30s so being pregnant when you're older is harder on your body.