How to stay positive

Little background: I had a missed miscarriage in March, went in for the 12 week scan and baby had stopped growing at 8w4d, I had a D&C and had one cycle before I fell pregnant again with our rainbow 🌈

I’m currently 10w1d but can’t help but stress and worry if baby is still growing.

I’m so worried something is wrong and I’m dreading the 12 week scan in case I hear those words again “sorry there’s no longer a heart beat”

I want to enjoy this pregnancy and I just can’t, I don’t feel like I can get excited or be happy in case it happens again.

What are the chances of 2 missed miscarriages in a row?

Just a little rant, needed to get it off my chest 😔