I dont want to say im not okay , but when the father of my baby doesn’t want to be around and finds every excuse to talk down to me i just don’t understand anymore , one day he loves me the next he hates my lying cheating whore ass: i want to be happy alone I really do mostly with this amazing baby i just had but i cant seem to be. Im not okay I dont feel like i will ever be. Im scared im becoming a bad mom. I just want to cry and sleep but i cant i stay up on my phone hoping he will message me and say he was kidding he loves me. Im lost and i hope to find myself soon.