Mom and a step mom

I’m so blessed to have a mom and a step mom.

My step mom stepped in when my mom took the wrong path in life. My real mom chose a lot over me like drugs men and alcohol. It was really crappy and from that point on defined our dynamic.

My step mom is amazing and stepped in when she didn’t have to. Her and my dad weren’t married yet. We deff didn’t get along for a while but we do now. I look at my step mom as my actual mom now.

My real mom is visiting her first grandchild for the first time. I had him during quarantine and she lives in a diff state. And I’m glad she got to finally see him. But omg she is mentally draining me. She’s been sobar for over 15 years. But I just can’t with her she’s just so much for me and I feel so bad that I prefer my step mom over her.