I confused him, now he never initiates

We've gone on 4 dates in the past 7 months that we've been talking. We could have had more but I would cancel dates and make excuses not to come out because I was still healing from depression that I got from my past relationship. My ex and I work at the same place. And I feel so bad for canceling and making excuses. I just ran into my new crush and were both single. He is nothing like my ex (my ex was emotionally abusive) - he's sweet and emotionally empathetic person which is super important to me. I guess it was wrong timing and I wasn't ready. I would sometimes disappear for a week without texting him because of my trauma of seeing my ex around, but I never told him about it because I didn't want him to feel worried. When I did have clarity to text my crush, I couldn't maintain a conversation so I would text him every 4 hours.

I've finally healed and am ready, but now I think he is confused or may not be that interested in me anymore. Could be both. But more importantly, I feel so bad that I might have hurt him by not communicating.

We would text every other day because I initiate, and he initiated calling me once and told me that I could call him anytime. I just feel like I initiate texting almost 100% of the time now. But when we call, our conversations last 2 hours and he tends to future project with me - like going to a concert together in the next year or doing each other's makeup.

What do I do? I really like him and can see myself being in a longterm relationship with him ☺🌼