Fuckityuck

I want to experience the recklessness of being young. I want to get hit on by someone and just have fun for a bit no strings attached. I want to kiss a girl in the rain. I want a strong man to pick me up and make me feel small. I want a small person to get flustered and tell me to degrade them. I want someone to do whatever they want to me but still respect my hard boundaries. I want to get in a poly relationship. I want to be heartbroken. I want to have a gentle break up and stay friends. I want to experience dating, in every form.

But I’m currently seeing someone who I don’t want to live without. My first relationship. I feel like I’m missing something but I don’t want to miss this, either. You really can’t have it all.