Just so not sure if this will ever happen

Never had a baby, we decided to try late to the point I am 41… we don’t want to do major interventions and feel if it is meant to happen it will happen…my heart secretly breaks every month with brown spotting and one line. This month all aligned ( I ovulated, we BD all in the right timing) and I wipe at 6 dpo to find a small amount of brown (again). A bit lighter than typical but dang it I am just so down. I am only 8 dpo and feel like I should just stop. Sorry to vent ladies, don’t know who else to vent too 💔🥺