I left my SO a month ago bc for the past 6 months he had been drinking so much and turning into a monster. I don't feel safe and most of the time I try leaving him ( if i can get out the door.) Well, a month ago, I finally did get out the door, and left for the weekend and he got on fb and was drunk and calling me names and saying I don't take showers and i smell and all this bs. It was humiliating. Thing is: he never acts that way until he puts alcohol in his body.

Fast foward a few weeks, I'm back w him, he SWEARS he's done drinking and I find out I'm pregnant in the same week. I told myself, this is a BAD situation, but he seemed to have stopped. Well thanksgiving came and drinking happened, w family, which was safe bc he was w them and he's not going to treat me bad around them.. THEN we go home, he starts drinking again and I realize he isn't going to change. I start losing hope for us. Remember I was over it the last time I left.

Now I realize,

If I'm gone, he's going to drink. I'm at my parents, he text me the same exact attitude he has when he drinks and all the blaming me on everything stuff..... blaming me for paying for my food etc... saying I worked out for other guys but not him, all this childish stuff.

I'm like, you're drunk... it's obvious, and then he starts in with how much he wants to be free.

Well SO DO I. I'm over here can't "party" anymore and about to go to bed and find a job tomorrow while you're selfish a** dwells on little sht that happened 8 months ago or before I was pregnant.

I NEVER bring up all the hell he's put me through the past 8 months to him or anyone. I just am really sick of dealing with all his bitching and drama and his childish, selfish, complaints!!!!!!! I'm not perfect but I try without complaining ever.

I'm stuck in a horrible situation with pretty much a horrible drunk. If he cared about me or the baby he'd change right? Well, I don't even know what I'm going to do anymore. I want to tell his parents but what's that gonna do. He's freaking 32 years old.

They don't even know about the baby. I'm 6 weeks.. 😔