I found out my boyfriend has a condom is his car, he told me about it after I made a dirty joke. He said when we first got together, that he wanted to wait until marriage, cause he did it with his ex, and she told everybody at our school.

I decided not to say anything else about the condom, until he went home, when I texted him and asked him why he had it, if he wanted to wait. I also told him if he really wanted to, that we could cause I trust him.

So he wants to, the problem is, I’m so scared that I’ll do something wrong, or that he won’t like it. I’m also scared that I’ll disappoint him but not wanting to do it last second. He promised he won’t leave me, and he’d stop if I panicked.

I don’t know though, I really want to have sex with him, but I know my anxiety gets to me a lot. I just need to know how to calm my nerves enough. Any advice?