My ex husband and had talked with some wine

My ex husband dropped our daughters off today. You ladies have been there with me through a lot. With me finding out he had been cheating on me with a man and was in love with this man. And us sitting down and talking am deciding to divorce. I'm in therapy and really struggling through this. We have 50/50 custody of our daughter and baby girl. He dropped them off and asked how I was doing. I told him how my sister has been rubbing this in my face. He says "Kierra's always been a bitch". I agreed. I opened some wine and asked if he wanted some. We drank wine and I asked him how his life as an openly gay man is and he said it's been hard and he lost his mom because of it but he's happy I'm finding himself. He actually died his hair blue. We talked about the girls and putting our oldest in preschool. Out of nowhere I started crying... I just couldn't help but cry... He grabbed my hand and said, " I'm sorry Kylie". I wiped my tears and drank my wine and we changed the subject. I will always care about him. Hope he finds his person... I hope I do someday too.😢