Im confused

Shamoy

I have BPD and relationships are more challenging for me. I met this man almost two years ago. As usual, things are great for couple months and then I get scared and push people away. I tend to feel and believe they will leave me first. He chases me when he feels I'm leaving. Anyway flash forward now, he is very good at the chasing; sweet messages, pics, I love you's etc. I do love him too. And everytime I give in because I need love so bad. Anyway everytime it happens and we end up having sex...the next day and after it seems all I get are crickets..the sweet text stops, the good morning stops etc. I hate feeling like I'm bothering ppl. Sex gets me very attached. Anyway it seem when he gets my body that's it until the next time around he needs me then I get the calls, sweet msg, I love you's. I feel he is all talk and not much action. Anyway I'm confused because I always feel I'm making things up in my head but I'm convinced he just wants my body. I need help.